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Spicy Surprise

In Life on May 24, 2012 at 11:44 am





Have you ever eaten chunkyish salsa, that didn’t seem too spicy and you got lulled into eating careless heaping chips full of said salsa only to get a chunk of a super spicy pepper and get red-faced, gasping for a cool glass of milk? [ok that was a run on sentence but are you following me?] I feel that way about the bitter taste of mourning lately. I will get the sense of calm, like, everything is ok, normal even, then…bam a chunk of habañero.


Last night we were singing verse after verse of “He’s got the whole world in His hands.” Asa & Judah were coming up with different things to say. We did Asa & Judah, Mommy & Reuben, Daddy & Grandma, you & me brother, then Asa said “you & me sister.” At the end of the verse Jodi asked Asa who the sister was. I expected him to say “you” to her, but he said, “she’s dead, baby sister died.” I don’t know what to do with that.


Many days I imagine my sweet little girl playing and smiling, but those thoughts drift into a sort of dull sadness. Then some little thing will happen that is sharp. That cuts. I know “He’s got the whole world in His hands.”

Even our “sister” Micah.

I know it.

I just don’t feel it.


Arizona 100

In Art, Mixed media on May 21, 2012 at 10:39 pm

8″x 8″ Marker and Pen on paper.

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